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I just felt like leaving you a note, definitly the word, song "Thrive" is there. But some days are exhausting, some of the things I hear and see make me wonder, is it time yet, how much more longer... Your ammichi turned 60 this yr. It was a very blessed occasion for her and us. As we had you on the slide show, ammichi gave a testimony with your love. I know you were there watching, smiling, I missed you when all the grandkids gave their testimony. A blessed generation. Through all the ups and downs, God manages to bring a smile. Also, your new baby cousin Bella Baby, I got to hold her for long time, she smiled so much in my hands, a memory of you. Then I spent all day with Jude, an exciting day for both of us, I felt like a mom caring for you. I know you find ways to cheer me, but I miss you a lot.  mommy is otherwise doing well,  never imagined I could be this far in life after all that I have gone through, God is amazing. I still struggle with my lonliness, but I know God has a purpose for everything.  I know my ending, so I leave it all with my Loving Father. I can't wait to see you. I hope all those who lost and will lose a loved one, know that to wait patiently for what is to come. Please continually watch over us, and all those who are hurt, all the little children, all those who just want to be loved. I wish people Love, and open their hearts Just like Jesus, that's my wish Baby Boy.  I love you with all my heart and Soul. 


 

A Mother's Day Wish From Heaven
By Jody Seilheimer

Dear Mr. Hallmark,
I am writing to you from heaven,
and though it must appear
A rather strange idea,
I see everything from here.

I just popped in to visit,
your stores to find a card
A card of love for my mother,
as this day for her is hard.

There must be some mistake I thought,
I saw every card you could imagine
Except I could not find a card,
from a child who lives in heaven.

She is still a mother too,
no matter where I reside
I had to leave, she understands,
but oh the tears she's cried.

I thought that if I wrote you,
that you would come to know
That though I live in heaven now,
I still love my mother so.

She talks with me, and dreams with me;
we still share laughter too,
Memories are our way of speaking now,
would you see what you could do?

My mother carries me in her heart,
her tears she hides from sight.
She writes poems to honor me, s
sometimes far into the night

She plants flowers in my garden,
there my living memory dwells
She writes to other grieving parents,
trying to ease their pain as well.

So you see Mr. Hallmark,
though I no longer live on earth
I must find a way to remind her
of her wondrous worth.
She needs to be honored,
and remembered too
Just as the children of earth will do.

Thank you Mr. Hallmark,
I know you'll do your best
I have done all I can do;
to you I'll leave the rest.

Find a way to tell her,
how much she means to me
Until I can do it for myself,
when she joins me in eternity.

Hey Baby! Mommy's getting older:(, hope you continually stay by me because I'm waiting for you! Anyway, I opened up to youversion and today's reading was from book of Isaiah 53. That's one my favorite chapters in the Bible. Thanking God for Jesus Christ Opening the Scriptures to me.  I just won't give up because giving up is  not Mommy, so I'm gonna keep pushing through all that I have faced and will face. One thing I know  for sure, that stairway to Heaven  is getting closer And I just can't wait! I hope to see all the balloons we send up there:)! We are all waiting To be with you. Mommy's Birthday wish  is always have a moment with you. I love you baby boy!

Isaiah 53
 Who believes what we’ve heard and seen? Who would have thought God ’s saving power would look like this? The servant grew up before God—a scrawny seedling, a scrubby plant in a parched field. There was nothing attractive about him, nothing to cause us to take a second look. He was looked down on and passed over, a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand. One look at him and people turned away. We looked down on him, thought he was scum. But the fact is, it was our pains he carried— our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us. We thought he brought it on himself, that God was punishing him for his own failures. But it was our sins that did that to him, that ripped and tore and crushed him— our sins! He took the punishment, and that made us whole. Through his bruises we get healed. We’re all like sheep who’ve wandered off and gotten lost. We’ve all done our own thing, gone our own way. And God has piled all our sins, everything we’ve done wrong, on him, on him. He was beaten, he was tortured, but he didn’t say a word. Like a lamb taken to be slaughtered and like a sheep being sheared, he took it all in silence. Justice miscarried, and he was led off— and did anyone really know what was happening? He died without a thought for his own welfare, beaten bloody for the sins of my people. They buried him with the wicked, threw him in a grave with a rich man, Even though he’d never hurt a soul or said one word that wasn’t true. Still, it’s what God had in mind all along, to crush him with pain. The plan was that he give himself as an offering for sin so that he’d see life come from it—life, life, and more life. And God ’s plan will deeply prosper through him. Out of that terrible travail of soul, he’ll see that it’s worth it and be glad he did it. Through what he experienced, my righteous one, my servant, will make many “righteous ones,” as he himself carries the burden of their sins. Therefore I’ll reward him extravagantly— the best of everything, the highest honors— Because he looked death in the face and didn’t flinch, because he embraced the company of the lowest. He took on his own shoulders the sin of the many, he took up the cause of all the black sheep. (Isaiah 53:1-12 MSG)

I love you & Miss You.

Dear Baby Elijah, two years ago on January 9th you met GOD. You have not gone away, you have not left us or your mommy. You are with us eternally. You do not fade away your spirit is strong. I know you are not dead. You are alive. Your mommy loves you and never stops loving you. There is never a time she does not think of you. You are perfection and hearing that your mommy knows there is a present waiting up in heaven. See you soon kiddo. I love You

It has been two years now...and I'm still numb from all that has happened. This day is a memory of my living nightmare forever, why, how, all those questions still remains unanswered. At times, I don't even feel it's me or it's my life because It's soo abnormal. This is never heard and never understood. Though My God has allowed some peace to flow through me each day, I still walk with a heavy heavy heart. I can talk about my son but I can't think about him too much because it's painful, hurts soo bad & that I have to tell myself repeatedly he's with Jesus. When I drive to work, I listen to K-Love all the time, and all the songs they play, I cry through them and when I get to work I have to wipe my tears off and stay strong..my job is to be there for people who are suffering physically and emotionally. I read a lot about the End times now a days, I hear a lot of messages, and I know we are near. His promises are real and I can't wait for His Kingdom come.

My Elijah always stared a lot, When I hold him, he would just stare and stare, I remember asking him why do u stare at me, is mommy that beautiful Elijah! He smiles...I'm sure he was probably telling me, he is always thinking about me, and not to worry. I don't know...it was just soo beautiful...He was too early to recognize many things, but there was something special about him, and I always wondered why, he knows too much, I remember if I wasn't holding him, he would search for me, he sometimes lift his head up to see what I was doing or where I'm going, and then while he was drinking milk, he would pause for a few seconds and stare at me. Oh how I adore and miss that. He's probably up there smiling at all this.

Why I was at work at that night? I'm sad I never got to kiss you million times before I left to work, which I always did except that night because I was told not to wake you up. Hurt like my heart is on fire... I can't describe what I feel anymore, and not make any sense either . I miss you and everything about you, from the moment God put you inside of me. I miss it all. All I do is hold on to the memories I shared with you because that's all I got...

A sweet Poem I kept..

"It's Me"
It's me, your little Angel just checking in with you.
I know you're sad because I'm gone,...and Mommy I'm sad too.
It's beautiful here, wherever I am, there's such a lovely view.
But mostly when I'm sitting here I'm looking down at you
I see all your feelings, everyday when I look down,
I love to see you smile and I know sometimes you frown
But guess what? I have a job to do.
God saved it for your little boy!
I get to watch over you and protect you from the world.
So though you cannot see me and I know it's hard on you,
You'll surely see the benefits of the job God has me do.

Today's Verse from You Version.
"And that about wraps it up. God is strong, and he wants you strong. So take everything the Master has set out for you, well-made weapons of the best materials. And put them to use so you will be able to stand up to everything the Devil throws your way. This is no afternoon athletic contest that we’ll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. "(Ephesians 6:10-12 MSG)

Lord I need you oh I need you, ever hour I need you, my one defense, my righteousness, oh How I need you...

My Hope is in You...

I love you more than you can fathom...

I miss you forever. Always in my heart and my mind. I Love you....

Love,
Mommy

 

 

Christmas has always been my favorite Holiday. Remembering Our baby Jesus born to us! This past day I got to watch the Nativity Movie. I cried watching the movie, it was just soo beautiful...the relationship of Mary and Joseph and the birth of our King. Just True Love. The birth of Jesus was Magnificent, Glorious, Amazing, Just Awe. I'm so glad you came to the earth to save us. Oh Elijah, my angel living with Jesus, a blessing... I wish I can be with you up there. My thoughts are always to be with you one day and soon. I miss you a lot especially during this time. But your love surrounds me through others and I'm forever grateful to God. I love you soo much.

Merry Christmas to you my Love!

Love,
Mommy

My sweet Baby Boy, Happy Birthday!!!Your two in Heaven! All day yesterday you were on my mind every second as if I can't wait to run home from work to be with you. 2 years ago you brought me happiness and tears to my eyes, and that still remains. All my hopes and dreams two years ago was not God's plan for me. I am learning to accept that , but I can never forget all that has happened. You were my heartbeat. For two months you gave me soo much love, it's soo hard to describe...& I can only imagine if you were here forever on this earth. Though I didn't understand all that you were showing mommy, but you made it clear to me how close you'll always be to me. Your favorite place putting your head on my shoulder and sleeping. Then when you woke up, you wanted to see everything. My Cutie...That I long for :,(
...
Mommy wants to say sooo much, but it hurts..one thing always remains my love for you is forever yesterday, today, and tomorrow , I Love You sooo much , crazy love...I'm miss you badly

I know your watching us over like the stars in sky. Your my twinkle twinkle little star. Also my sunshine this morning, I know your making me feel you. Thanking God for every moment with you, my little angel.

I know your happy and celebrating this beautiful day with our father. I can only imagine the excitement up there and Mommy knows you got the best gift from God.

My wishes and dreams is to be with you again and to celebrate Life with Christ. I know it will happen, and I'll wait patiently.

Happy Birthday my beautiful prince! I love you sooooo much. Lots of hugs and kisses!!!! I miss you....

Happy Birthday!!!!
Yours Always,
Mommy <3 u.

"Only Name That Matters"


Yours will be the only Name that matters to me
The only One Whose favor I seek
The only Name that matters to me

Yours will be
The friendship and affection I need
To feel my Father smiling on me
The only Name that matters to me

Yours is the Name the Name that has saved me
Mercy and grace the power that forgave me
And Your love is all I’ve ever needed

When I wake up in the Land of Glory
And with the saints I will tell my story
There will be one Name that I proclaim

Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, just that Name

Just wished you'd be here to wipe my tears away. I love you soo much. 

As we remember Jesus death. We remember Love and his purpose to always Love each other. Love is a sacrificial gift. 

Brandon Heath "Your Love"

I felt it first when I was younger
A strange connection to the light
I tried to satisfy the hunger
I never got it right
I never got it right

So I climbed a mountain and l built an altar
Looked out as far as I could see
And everyday I’m getting older
I’m running outta dreams
I’m running outta dreams

But Your love
Your love
The only the thing that matters is Your love
Your love is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
It’s Your love
Your love
all I ever needed is Your love

You know the effort I have given
And you know exactly what it cost
And though my innocence was taken
Not everything is lost
Not everything is lost nooooo

But Your love
Your love
The only the thing that matters is Your love
Your love is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
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It’s Your love
Your love
all I ever needed is Your love

You’re the hope in the morning
You’re the light when the night is falling
You’re the song when my heart is singing
it’s Your love
You’re the eyes to the blind man
You’re the feet to the lame man walking
You’re the sound of the people singing
It’s Your love

But Your love
Your love
The only the thing that matters is Your love
Your love is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
It’s Your love
Your love
all I ever needed is Your love

But Your love
(Your love is all that I needed)
The only the thing that matters is Your love
Your love is all I have to give
Your love is enough to light up the darkness
(Your love is all that I needed)
It’s Your love
Your love
It’s all I ever needed

Some more angels like you taken away to be safe in the arms of Jesus. May God of love and peace comfort all those whos hearts have been crushed. God has not forsaken his children on earth, he will lift us one day. God has a purpose for all that happens and one day it will all be revealed.  I learned giving ourselves to God is our comfort from the burdens of this world. People are evil, cruel, unfair, they glorify in others pain. Sadly, one day they will realize what pain they brought, everlasting pain, & God of justice will make them understand that pain. We can only allow God to take care of it all. Grieving is hard when there is anger, but we must let it all fall in the arms of Christ, cause he's our healer, our redeemer, our saviour, & bandages our wounds.  Just as I believe I will see you again soon, I hope and pray many will too today.

 Blessed are those who are sad. They will be comforted. (Matthew 5:4 NIRV)
 
"we feel like we have lost everything that is dear to us but this verse just proves that this is when we should draw closer to God bc he wants to be there. He wants to love us and be our strength when our "world" comes crashing down and we feel lost and unsure. He is there to keep us going and fill every void we have. The things we have lost are replaced and tenfold when we draw closer to him. God is good."